life and times of a lazy cook

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guess what?

today i just don’t care. at all.

i counted my calories and ate 5 servings of produce.

i didn’t binge. or eat chocolate.

i worked out.

but i simply just do not care. if i stay the same weight this week. if i gain a pound. i just don’t.

what matters more is my life. and my education. and my sanity.

hopefully i’ll see that number go down, but if i don’t, i know why. i took in more than i put out.

hopefully i’ll snap out of this mind set. i want to achieve my goal weight. i want to lose these last 10 pounds.

but tonight, i just do not care.

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dear bloggie,

the past four days have been an emotional roller coaster of both terrible and amazing life events

in the terrible column:

  • going to happy hour the night before your first 5k. subsequently drunk ordering pizza (especially when you’re lactose intolerant), and meeting friends at the neighborhood bar.
  • running a 5k hungover. i thought my tummy was going to explode after the first mile

    after finishing. ready to kill someone..

  • an emotionally draining letter from my ex-boyfriend.
  • subsequent mean emails from my ex-boyfriend.
  • spending $250 on textbooks
  • unreliable car betteries.

now for the amazingness that has been my life:

  • finishing my first race in 28:49. not bad for a hungover runner!
  • this idea:

    individually packaged cheddar bunnies in correct portion sizes. then have your roommate hide the big bag from you. keeps me from eating a whole box in one sitting!

  •  my classes! i LOVE them! well, mostly
  • nice guys who are attentive and respectful and wonderful.post-5k wine and dance parties. i highly recommend it.
  • the weather. this winter has been wonderful in terms of not having a blizzard yet.
  • homemade cookies.

i’m busy getting into the swing of things with school, but life is looking up in pretty much every way.

truth time.

the things i dislike about myself:

i’m too defensive.

i worry too much.

i can’t make up my mind.

i’m judgmental.

i’m lazy (hence the blog title).

i’m terrible with money.

sometimes i think i use people.

i’m the opposite of spontaneous.

i don’t volunteer or really do anything to help others.

i’m vain.

i can’t stand confrontation.

i don’t think i live my “best life” every day, or even most of the time.

i don’t remember how to do long division.

i can get very angry, but i hide it.

the things i like about myself:

i’m a good friend.

i’m an intelligent and thinking person.

i changed the things in my life that were making me unhappy.

i’m confident.

i try my hardest to always be authentic.

i’m sensitive.

i make a point to express my gratitude to my parents for everything they’ve done for me at every opportunity.

i’m independent.

i like meeting new people, and don’t find it very hard to talk to most people.

i’m strong.

i’m sentimental.

i’m emotional. VERY emotional.

i try to stay in touch with myself, and address the things i’m unhappy with.

i actually started this blog.

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