life and times of a lazy cook

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surprise!

so i got in the scale this morning. 135.2. lost .8 pounds. i have never been so shocked by a loss. i didn’t feel skinny. i cardio is the one thing that actually makes me feel skinnier, but i’m trying to be better about mixing it up with weight training.

speaking of cardio–i did 4 miles today under 38 minutes and it felt great. i’ve decided taking days off and varying my workouts is the key to good runs.

here’s a little look at what i ate today–

breakfast:

best breakfast of my life. for realsies.

oatmeal with bran buds, peanut butter and a banana; ww english muffin with butter and a fried egg. and i ate it in bed while watching pretty little liars. life is good.

lunch:

in process....

mmmmm.....

it’s simply a 4 oz. can of tuna, half an avocado, a little light mayo, scallions and garlic powder in a ww pita with some delicious ketchup.

then i had leftovers and this happened:

i love ketchup. no shame.

onto dinner:

look at those photography skills.

garlicky riced cauliflower (left over from dinner last night, i’ll post that recipe soon), baked tofu with garlic powder and sweet potatoes cooked in the microwave then sautéed with rosemary and thyme. the cauliflower was meh, but the sweet potato…..LOVE. so filling and warm and wonderful.

good day all in all. i was productive, ate healthy and had a good run. that’s pretty much all you can ask for!

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guess what?

today i just don’t care. at all.

i counted my calories and ate 5 servings of produce.

i didn’t binge. or eat chocolate.

i worked out.

but i simply just do not care. if i stay the same weight this week. if i gain a pound. i just don’t.

what matters more is my life. and my education. and my sanity.

hopefully i’ll see that number go down, but if i don’t, i know why. i took in more than i put out.

hopefully i’ll snap out of this mind set. i want to achieve my goal weight. i want to lose these last 10 pounds.

but tonight, i just do not care.

dear bloggie,

the past four days have been an emotional roller coaster of both terrible and amazing life events

in the terrible column:

  • going to happy hour the night before your first 5k. subsequently drunk ordering pizza (especially when you’re lactose intolerant), and meeting friends at the neighborhood bar.
  • running a 5k hungover. i thought my tummy was going to explode after the first mile

    after finishing. ready to kill someone..

  • an emotionally draining letter from my ex-boyfriend.
  • subsequent mean emails from my ex-boyfriend.
  • spending $250 on textbooks
  • unreliable car betteries.

now for the amazingness that has been my life:

  • finishing my first race in 28:49. not bad for a hungover runner!
  • this idea:

    individually packaged cheddar bunnies in correct portion sizes. then have your roommate hide the big bag from you. keeps me from eating a whole box in one sitting!

  •  my classes! i LOVE them! well, mostly
  • nice guys who are attentive and respectful and wonderful.post-5k wine and dance parties. i highly recommend it.
  • the weather. this winter has been wonderful in terms of not having a blizzard yet.
  • homemade cookies.

i’m busy getting into the swing of things with school, but life is looking up in pretty much every way.

truth time.

the things i dislike about myself:

i’m too defensive.

i worry too much.

i can’t make up my mind.

i’m judgmental.

i’m lazy (hence the blog title).

i’m terrible with money.

sometimes i think i use people.

i’m the opposite of spontaneous.

i don’t volunteer or really do anything to help others.

i’m vain.

i can’t stand confrontation.

i don’t think i live my “best life” every day, or even most of the time.

i don’t remember how to do long division.

i can get very angry, but i hide it.

the things i like about myself:

i’m a good friend.

i’m an intelligent and thinking person.

i changed the things in my life that were making me unhappy.

i’m confident.

i try my hardest to always be authentic.

i’m sensitive.

i make a point to express my gratitude to my parents for everything they’ve done for me at every opportunity.

i’m independent.

i like meeting new people, and don’t find it very hard to talk to most people.

i’m strong.

i’m sentimental.

i’m emotional. VERY emotional.

i try to stay in touch with myself, and address the things i’m unhappy with.

i actually started this blog.

daily treats.

this morning i had my weekly weigh in–i decided to move it to thursday because…i don’t know why. i get impatient. the scale said……136. same as last week. which is honestly what i was expecting, either maintaining or a little gain. i was feeling slumpy so i didn’t get my exercise on as much as usual and it’s the week before my lady time, so i pretty much wanted to eat everything in sight. i’m looking at you peanut butter.

but honestly i’m pleased i maintained this weight. the 130s still make me really happy.

for exercise i did a bar method dvd (as a former dancer, my personal favorite fitness dvds–no weird jumping around) since it was entirely to cold to leave the house and i think it was just what my body needed. getting stretched and worked in a different way felt great.

here’s a look at what i ate today–

breakfast:

good morning!

half a grapefruit, a ww english muffin with unsalted peanut butter and oatmeal with 1/3 a cup of bran buds plus a tablespoon of unsweetened cocoa and a pinch of brown sugar. next time i’ll probably make the cocoa-sugar ratio more equal, but it was seriously amazing. like coco pebbles. but healthy.

lunch:

lunch is my favorite.

tofu baked with garlic powder in a ww pita slathered with 2 laughing cow garlic and herb cheese wedges instead of mayo and a layer of spinach. also baby carrots! yay vitamin a!

dinner:

hello broccoli, my love.

tostadas are one of my favorite fast, easy meals which you can assemble with random stuff in the fridge. for this batch i had corn tortillas, black beans which i sprinkled with cilantro and garlic powder, medium cheddar, frontera’s  mango key lime salsa and fage 0% greek yogurt.

i just toast up the tortillas for a few minutes in a 400 degree oven, add the beans and cheese, pop back in for a few more minutes until the cheese is melted, then top with salsa and yogurt. i’m thinking next time adding avocados would be an excellent choice.

the salsa was different than any fruit salsa i’ve had before, but i ended up loving it by the end! unusual but delicious! steamed broccoli sprinkled with sea salt rounded out this delicious, filling meal.

so here’s a question i’ve been pondering for a while–how much fiber is too much fiber? i get a lot. like often 40-50 grams a day. i’m thinking this may be the cause of my late night tummy aches, but what am i supposed to do? i eat fruits, veggies and whole grains just like we’re supposed to.

after my emo rant this morning, things are looking up. it’s almost the weekend and i’m running my first race on saturday! 5k wohoo! i have a few yummy recipes i want to try out this weekend and i’m looking forward to a good, healthy weekend with no alcohol-involved socializing.

bad blogger

sorry i’ve been such a terrible blogger lately.

i mostly just felt like i’ve had nothing to say.

i’ve been in winter break hibernation mode. i’ve been reading trashy teen novels (for school). and i’ve been really entirely boring. except that i learned to make omelets, which i’m actually really excited about.

but i’m on track with le weight loss–i weighed in at 136 last thursday, which means apparently i lost 2 pounds last ween. what? i still don’t really believe that’s true.

but yes. i’ve recommitted to this blog. to recording my thoughts about health and weight loss and everything else that happens in my day.

speaking of the day…..today i ran 4 miles, when i set out to only run 3. and it felt great. and i feel back to normal (i’ve had a really annoying nagging sickness for the past week or so). my head feels normal so i feel like i can finally think again.

finally!

non-scale victories.

so it’s monday after a lazy weekend, and well i’m still feeling lazy. but luckily i’m still on winter break so i can afford to be a little lazy.

the weekend was quite enjoyable, i saw an old friend, discovered the best piano bar in milwaukee, relaxed and started a new (for fun) book.

i had a good eating day, complete with my oh-my-god-i’m-so-obsessed-with-this salad: baby spinach, baby romaine, scallions, goat cheese, garlic dressing and a lovely pear on top. simply amazing! dinner was straight up baked tofu and roasted cauliflower and brussels sprouts with homemade garlic salt i got in my stocking. yeah, there’s a reason i put my laziness in le blog title.

so onto those non-sale victories–i realized for the entire weekend i was pretty much living in a pair of boxer shorts i bought senior year of college that used to be to small for me. i mean like, uncomfortably too small. as in i didn’t wear them until about a month ago.

well i’ve been wearing them around the house for a few days now (i TOLD you it was a lazy weekend) and they are maybe even verging on too big. victory!

second nsv (abbreviations are just easier sometimes)–my legs. seriously. if you want great legs, start running. i’m not yet completely happy with other parts of my body (*cough* love handles *cough*) but the legs, i’m SO good with.

third nsv–i totally got checked out at the gym on sunday. this just made me happy because no make-up, post run hair, spandexed alice does not expect to get checked out.

in other news i officially declared my commitment to reach my goal weight by may on the website stickK.com, which i absolutely adore. you pick a goal–it can be weight loss, quitting smoking, working out 5 days a week–WHATEVER and then set a time limit to reach your goal. you check in every week and if you fail to reach your goal you have to give money to a charity you disagree with. excellent motivation!

so for the rest of the night, i’ll be soaking in the bachelor and pretty little liars, probably just pretending to get reading done. sounds perfect!

mid-day: what i’m eating

so i decided to weigh myself this morning as tonight i have a date (!) and there will be drinks involved. and nothing makes me as frustrated as a dehydration-induced false weight. so yeah the scale said 138. back to pre-holiday weight! what up?

i’ve officially decided my goal weight is in the 125-128 range. and i want to get there by the end of the school year in may a.k.a. bikini season. soooooo yeah let’s get sexy up in here!

so here’s what’s gotten into by belly so far today

breakfast: whole wheat english muffin with peanut butter, a banana and fage total 0% with some bran buds mixed in and a touch of honey. sorry breakfast is always boring.

lunch (so far): bruschetta! i finished my bottle from trader joe’s (sad face) so since this will not be making an appearance again soon, i immortalized it’s deliciousness with a photo.

sorry this is the worst photo ever posted on a food blog

then i was off the the gym/whole foods to pick up healthy yummies for the weekend.

my run was awesome and i ran 5 miles in 47:25. go me!

after i got home i snacked on a pear, some tofu from yesterday and a wee bit of yogurt dip with carrots. yummy. but now i’m counting down the minutes until dinner. SO HUNGRY. i’m planning on some simple (whole wheat) pasta with olive oil and parmesan and steamed broccoli on the side.

then it’s date time. yeah, i’m a little nervous. i haven’t been on a like date DATE in a year. this should be special.

so how IS real life going?

i’d have to say….pretty swell.

it’s winter break so i get to read a lot of fun books in preparation for the upcoming semester and lay around thinking about going to the gym!

just kidding, i actually have been doing well fitness-wise. yesterday i ran 4 miles straight in under 40 minutes. wohoo!

then i dragged my butt  to the gym again today (after laying in bed for a few hours debating health vs. laziness) and did a 5k in 29:03 and 30 minutes on the treadmill.

both runs this week have been really awesome and i’m feeling almost back to normal after the extended holiday celebrations.

however, i’m having one of those weeks when i want to eat EVERYTHING. it doesn’t help that my lovely roomie brought me back a (hello kitty!) advent calendar from oman, complete with chocolate.

but i think i have managed to keep my eating under control, just on the higher end of calories i allow myself. think 1500-1600 a day. sometimes you just need to eat.

breakfast: whole wheat english muffin with natural peanut butter and a banana

lunch: 3 spaghetti squash tacos topped with scallions and fage 0% plus a salad of spinach and baby romaine topped with goat cheese, scallions, my amazing garlic expressions dressing and a sliced up pear (i only put about half the pear on the salad and i chomped on the rest plain). also yes, i LOVE scallions.

dinner: baked (sorta) tofu and garlic/balsamic vinegar brussels sprouts

this dinner was a little bit of an adventure. i got the idea for the brussels sprouts from this recipe: http://www.theschellcafe.com/?p=2183, which my family made for christmas.

i simply sautéed the sprouts with in olive oil with garlic until they were browned and tender. about an hour before dinner (i.e. when i got hungry) i sliced up a package of tofu and put it in a bowl to marinate in trader joe’s soyaki sauce a.k.a. my absolute fav.

i was determined to bake my tofu, but i didn’t pat it off enough before i started marinating it so even after 12 minutes in a 350 degree oven they were still soft so i used my brussels sprouts to fry them for a bit to crisp them up.

i plan to use the rest of the tofu on salads and sandwiches etc. throughout the rest of the week 🙂

delicious and filling if i may say so myself!

nard.

today my ex-boyfriend, first (and as of right now only) real love moved to boston. i had a dream about him last night. i honestly don’t know how i feel about this. i think on the one hand i used him as an emotional crutch. i’ll always care about him deeply and i know he’ll always feel the same. in fact, i have a feeling if i had ever wanted to get back together he would have been very happy.

we had a complicated relationship (aren’t they all really?) and a less-than-clean breakup (i.e. i was terrible and strung him along and punished him for things he had done to me in the past instead of making up my damn mind). and i really just don’t know. i never really saw him before now, but i hate that i CAN’T now.

i mean, i know i can/will see him again since all his family and friends are in the area…..but still. and i guess i kind of regret that i didn’t see him before he left. i saw him a few weeks ago, when he was super amazing and drove an hour to come and pick drunk, crisis-mode, crying me up.

what can i say….i’m an awesome ex-girlfriend.

but also i think seeing him would have been harder. i think i would have romanticized what we had/have. and decided i was in love with him again. because i tend to do that when things get tough.

i don’t really know why i’m posting about this, since it has entirely nothing to do with food, cooking or working out but here i am, writing.

i just still always pictured us together in the end. and maybe that will happen. but for now i guess that chapter is closed.

i’ve also decided to be done with the stupid man-child who was nonchalantly breaking my heart for the past three months. and i have a first date thursday night.

and let’s get real here, i’m 23. i SHOULD be single and dating right now.

well, at least thats what i keep telling myself.

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